well g-damn!

my favorite hammie passed away :(

let me explain...

through my marvelous innerweb travelings i came across this flickr page featuring the most adorable hamster i've ever seen. i bookmarked the page and whenever i was feeling bleh i'd check it for new photos to cheer me up cuz i'm weird like that. but really how could you look at this face and not smile? ok maybe it's just me.

anyway...i'm feeling kinda bleh today and randomly craving onion rings so i clicked over to see what chmurka was up to only to find out she died. wtf kind of world is this where innocent hammies die from cancer? i mean, i was totally ready to buy a hammie of my own but now i'm like fk that it's just gonna die and i can't really handle that.

ugh

this entry is for rashad. i wish i could have written something more substantial but i'm generally dissatisfied for no apparent reason and it's rendered me stagnant in all aspects. sorry. honestly, this shit sucks. rejuvenation would be awesome. or maybe i just need to do it.

ugh

i just looked at my monthly budget and got depressed.

i really wanted to go to somebody's beach in may so i could get a tan before madness. but if i'm serious abt taking my bday trip i need to keep my happy ass at home and save. the beach trip is turning out to be more than i expected, mainly because i want to go alone. as much as i enjoy planning, trip planning doesn't tickle my fancy at all. factor in more ppl with different agendas and it's just a big hassle. all i want to do is sit on the beach and tan. a non-crowded beach.

last night i dreamed about a puppy again. this one was all black and sort of looked like a pekingese but it was so cute and cuddly and adorable. and i was holding it in my arms to keep it warm. then it disappeared and i thought maybe i put it under my shirt to keep it warm. but when i lifted my shirt only my satin cap fell out. never did find that puppy.

oh yeah...happy spring!

i started blogging on blogger a year ago today but i don't know if it really counts as a birthday because my original blog started before that. i suppose it's not too important to keep up with things of that nature but i wanted to acknowledge the fact in some way. so yeah. there it is.