ugh

my bday is soon and i'm not happy
i'm happier than i was last week
but still i'm not all that happy
i wasn't gonna blog abt it
bc i really don't feel like explaining

i was a monster last week
and i wanna cry
but i haven't been able to
it just won't come out
i can't remember ever feeling this bad around my bday
i need fairy dust and new shoes
and lots o cake